How long...?

It feels like my world is about to come crashing down around me.  If I don't get to grips with my financial situation, I can already feel the walls closing in. My greatest fear is that my wife will have a full blown relapse,  that would break my heart. She may even luck me out, which I would probably deserve, but I would take that over her condition deteriorating. That is how much I love her and how much I want to protect her.